I haven't posted in a while. I know. That is because I had sought refuge at Avril and Pierre's place in England, and was in a vegetative state. I ate lots of good food and enjoyed good company. I played lots of Pokemon Go and stocked up on some meds and toiletries that were needed for the next leg of the trip.
People I meet along the way often ask if I get homesick. I get homesick for people, but not places. I don't really miss Alberta specifically or anything particularly Canadian/ North American in nature, but I do miss just going over to a friend's house, or calling someone up when I am having a tough time. I miss my social life and my family and the comfort that comes along with these things, but overall I think I am alright. My moments of loneliness and tiredness come mostly on long travel days, and of course airport days. I get anxious and unsure. I debate booking a flight home right then and there, every time I get to an airport, but once I am checked in and through security, that anxiety fades. I chalk this up to the unknown and the uncertainties in life. What will the next country bring? What could happen, who will I meet? All of the what ifs really come into play when I arrive at the airport. It is also downtime, which means more time to overanalyse my current situation.
I would also like to say that people are so full of prejudice, and sometimes I allow it to cloud my mind before I arrive somewhere. The world is in rough shape, between terrorists, corrupt governments, political issues and religious wars, but the media coverage and preconceived notions don't help make anything better.
Before I left, my dad shared this quote with me:
It has really resonated with me the last little while. Before going to any country, people tell me to "be careful" or that it "smells bad" or "the men are terrible" or "there is a lot of crime and violence", but this is never the case. I know that these things exist, but they exist in my own country, it is about taking each moment in stride, and knowing that every place has good and bad, and we cannot control this. Whatever happens will happen regardless, and why would I miss out on so much beauty and kindness, just because some people told me it wouldn't be amazing?
Anyway, this is where I am at. I have SO MUCH to say about Nepal, but I am feeling hot and tired and drained from all that I have seen and done, so I will post more soon.
People I meet along the way often ask if I get homesick. I get homesick for people, but not places. I don't really miss Alberta specifically or anything particularly Canadian/ North American in nature, but I do miss just going over to a friend's house, or calling someone up when I am having a tough time. I miss my social life and my family and the comfort that comes along with these things, but overall I think I am alright. My moments of loneliness and tiredness come mostly on long travel days, and of course airport days. I get anxious and unsure. I debate booking a flight home right then and there, every time I get to an airport, but once I am checked in and through security, that anxiety fades. I chalk this up to the unknown and the uncertainties in life. What will the next country bring? What could happen, who will I meet? All of the what ifs really come into play when I arrive at the airport. It is also downtime, which means more time to overanalyse my current situation.
I would also like to say that people are so full of prejudice, and sometimes I allow it to cloud my mind before I arrive somewhere. The world is in rough shape, between terrorists, corrupt governments, political issues and religious wars, but the media coverage and preconceived notions don't help make anything better.
Before I left, my dad shared this quote with me:
It has really resonated with me the last little while. Before going to any country, people tell me to "be careful" or that it "smells bad" or "the men are terrible" or "there is a lot of crime and violence", but this is never the case. I know that these things exist, but they exist in my own country, it is about taking each moment in stride, and knowing that every place has good and bad, and we cannot control this. Whatever happens will happen regardless, and why would I miss out on so much beauty and kindness, just because some people told me it wouldn't be amazing?
Anyway, this is where I am at. I have SO MUCH to say about Nepal, but I am feeling hot and tired and drained from all that I have seen and done, so I will post more soon.
Love this, thank you.
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